Now that's some willpower!!!

Mike has been in Vegas this week, so I have doing dinner duty for the kids while on this lovely (insert sarcasm here) preop diet! I have been trying to make things that normally don't seem that appealing to me...but let me tell you, being on this preop diet, I will be honest, EVERYTHING seems appealing...anyhoo, things got kind of busy tonight and so I said how about pizza? They were cool with that...HOWEVER.....they requested PIZZA KING!!!! Are you kidding me?!?!? Why not just dangle a steak in front of a tiger!!! Let me tell you, there is nothing better then a corner of pizza king royal feast!! The smell alone was almost enough to send me over the edge!




But.....I did it!!!! Or should I say, I didn't do it...I did not sneak one bite of that yummy goodness!!! Woohoo for small victories!!! Down to 3 days left till surgery and I am realizing that I have to make this journey one day...but usually more like one hour at a time...am I proud of myself for not sneaking a bite??? You betcha :)

The Journey Begins....

So I thought I would start a blog to keep up with my new weight loss journey.  After much deliberation, I made the decision to move forward with gastric sleeve surgery.  I will have the surgery this coming monday, April 29th.

A little background about my battle with weight loss and what led me to this decision.

I never struggled with my weight growing up.  Even into my teens and early 20's it was never an issue. I got married and had 2 children. Still never was an issue. Then my world got turned upside down. We lost our 4 year old son, Morgan to cancer on August 9, 2002.  Then on December 14th, the same year, I lost my mom to lung cancer.

This is when I started to turning to food.  I have heard of people who don't eat when the grieve, mine was the opposite. Food was my comfort...I ate when I was sad, I ate when I was mad, then over time, as I began to heal, I ate when I was happy.

Since then, I have tried it all....Weight watchers, Atkins, South Beach, Advocare...you name it, I have tried it. I would have some success, then I would "fall off the wagon" and gain it all back, and then some...It just became a viscous cycle.  Then I had a friend who had amazing success with the gastric sleeve and encouraged me to look into it.  It took me about a year, to finally get the guts to do it, but here I am, 4 days before the surgery.  I am nervous, but I am so excited!  I have been on a pre op diet for the past 10 days and I am already down 14 pounds! That in itself, is enough to let me know that I have made the right decision.  For those of you who think that I am taking the easy way out, think again! This diet has SUCKED!! Protien shakes, nasty soups and 1 protein bar a day...Thank GOD for sugar free popsicles and sugar free jello! My insurance does NOT cover this surgery, so we are paying for it out of pocket.  I know going into this my eating habits can never be the same.  This is not the easy way out, this is a mere stepping stone to get my health back on track so that I can enjoy life again, so that I am here for my kids and God willing, someday my grandkids.  I hope that you will follow my journey!


Here's a starting pic...this was Christmas 2011...hopefully, as the months go on, you'll be seeing a lot less of me ;)